Obviously, I have been away for a long time. I am working on a move to Los Angeles, so I am sorry for my absent.
I am hoping soon that I will be able to post more regularly soon.
I am not sure how many people actually read this journal, I know Dameon definitely doesn't. He said he did, but I don't believe him, but it is hard to trust him sometimes.
I have been really trying not to be negative about the world but it is hard sometimes. I did start therapy recently and am dealing with some of my abandonment issues. My therapist wants me to try to talk to my sister, but I don't think the shrink doesn't understand my sister's rejection makes me want to kill myself sometimes. I have tried repeatively to reach out to her, but she doesn't want to have anything to do with me.
For some reason, she blames me for our parents death. I am not entirely sure why, I have never understood her. I tried to be the perfect son for them, she was the one who tried to rebel against everything they did. I don't understand it.
I have to go, work calls. I hope everyone reading this is wonderful.